16 February 2020
Some sort of development has come to me. A few notes:
1. I wanted to tutor an opportunity (so to speak) which was for an English subject that wanted help with her ACT English. I wasn't matched. It was disappointing. However, I do know that I didn't want to teach anyone on ACT and SATs so that was why it never happened. The initial disappointment here has been taken away due to the realization that this was never going to be good for the student. I do not blame anyone nor do I blame my new employer for being wise about this. SO it's all good there.
2. I've been thinking of not writing novels any more. I find that this experience of mine in writing fiction has been very difficult for me and my sensitive nature. I'm not yet quite sure it's completely made as a decision. I've to ask God about this and ask Jesus as well. I do not know if writing in its own sense is bad - fiction wise. I think that the idea of introducing characters and their problems in their fictional lives has somehow got too much of the bad thoughts out in the open. I think those who read this statement might agree in their own way.
3. The knit brands are as usual. I'm making a new beanie, the first edition has been somewhat large for my head and so I think there could be a tweak to the size.
4. I've resumed selling on eBay. I have been disappointed in the sales at eBay but I'm not going to leave them yet. I am on other shops online. I have not got much on sales in any place. I think this life I'm leading has become rather like a blocked life, in many or all areas of it. Certainly in finance, I'm definitely not getting an extra income. I'm trying to see if the tutoring business will be anything to live on but that might take a few more weeks, maybe months.
5. I'm hoping to get some sort of sales on LLR, and then the ThirtyOne Gifts I'm thinking of joining. I'm doing the "Shotgun" sort of scheme. In essence, the scheme taking on all to see if something gets caught into the net where I can find a niche or income. It's like how a shotgun is deployed to get 'artifacts' or fragments to its general target. That's a term I learned from molecular biologists. I was a mobiology student in my postdoctoral fellowship.
6. I don't have any real idea what the next week will bring. I surely think I'll be around in this world for a while. I do not wish to give up now. I'm interested in a lot of things and I want to see how these things come out in time. I have also my pets to consider and my Dad who's still doing as well as he can.
7. I've been asked to consider moving to Spain. It's rather a long way to get there. So many logistical problems to overcome. First, I need to find a way to live there - some town to live in. Apartments are probably going to be somewhat of a financial challenge in rents. Then there's the job scene but if I were to keep with what I"m doing and get the remote position that I am thinking of getting, then it might be doable. Then I'd have to persuade Dad to move to Spain and he's kind of an immoveable object in many things, especially in getting his butt out of this place, haha. Then of course there's the travel involved in getting to choose an apartment to live in. That will take a week or so to find one. Then I'd have to return home to get us moved into Spain. All the money and time involved, not to mention oh, the pets. I'd have to get the pets taken to their vets to get them a pet something or other. I do not even know what Spain thinks of pets getting moved into their country. Such a lot of energy to expend. Even psychic energy will be something to help with. I'll need to consult God about this as well and Jesus. I might have to broach the idea to my Dad sometime. But I'll let it go for now.
8. Car purchase is not going well. I do not wish to get a damn car now. I'm so fucking tired of getting nowhere. The dealers are always asking me for a co-signer and a downpayment. So I have to save up on the downpayment. The FICO problem is another thing to think of but not too much. I am tired of this FICO crap. I do know that my FICO score has gone up eversince these lawyers have helped take out some of these fictional debts that have been added to my credit profile.
9. The house is not on sale right now. I'm not able to get a mortgage or qualify for one. MyFICO is also in this. I've been told or some realtor person suggested I go for a bankruptcy and then in 2 years I'd be able to get into a mortgage. But I know that because I'm one of the two who are on the mortgage of our house I'll likely loose the house and Dad will have a fit and he won't go for it. I have not quite told him about this. I do not know what he will say. He probably will hate the idea. And, I do not know where we will be living in the USA, if we do move out of here. I cannot say that I want to go to INdianapolis. That place isn't that great. Somehow it's gotten less attractive. SO many fucking traffic, so many places that have unfinished road remodelings or whatever they're called. There's a huge hole in the highway somewhere on the way to Carmel, it's awful. It's been there for years. It's not been finished. And the way out of town in that area is so fucking confusing. It's terrible how the DOT has fallen off the wagon on this. I do not know why people have to do these road constructions there seem to be too many of these going every fucking year and somehow I guess that is how they employ people. It's a hard job and it's too cruel on a person's body. All these in the heat of the summer or even sometimes in the fall. Awful how it's sad.
10. I do not know what else to say here I guess business is not doing well. I'm trying not to get into a funk about it. I am praying as much as I can pray. I do not wish to talk about my faith. It is still strong. I will be looking at attending church someday but not in this town. Too many bags of wigged out people here.
1. I wanted to tutor an opportunity (so to speak) which was for an English subject that wanted help with her ACT English. I wasn't matched. It was disappointing. However, I do know that I didn't want to teach anyone on ACT and SATs so that was why it never happened. The initial disappointment here has been taken away due to the realization that this was never going to be good for the student. I do not blame anyone nor do I blame my new employer for being wise about this. SO it's all good there.
2. I've been thinking of not writing novels any more. I find that this experience of mine in writing fiction has been very difficult for me and my sensitive nature. I'm not yet quite sure it's completely made as a decision. I've to ask God about this and ask Jesus as well. I do not know if writing in its own sense is bad - fiction wise. I think that the idea of introducing characters and their problems in their fictional lives has somehow got too much of the bad thoughts out in the open. I think those who read this statement might agree in their own way.
3. The knit brands are as usual. I'm making a new beanie, the first edition has been somewhat large for my head and so I think there could be a tweak to the size.
4. I've resumed selling on eBay. I have been disappointed in the sales at eBay but I'm not going to leave them yet. I am on other shops online. I have not got much on sales in any place. I think this life I'm leading has become rather like a blocked life, in many or all areas of it. Certainly in finance, I'm definitely not getting an extra income. I'm trying to see if the tutoring business will be anything to live on but that might take a few more weeks, maybe months.
5. I'm hoping to get some sort of sales on LLR, and then the ThirtyOne Gifts I'm thinking of joining. I'm doing the "Shotgun" sort of scheme. In essence, the scheme taking on all to see if something gets caught into the net where I can find a niche or income. It's like how a shotgun is deployed to get 'artifacts' or fragments to its general target. That's a term I learned from molecular biologists. I was a mobiology student in my postdoctoral fellowship.
6. I don't have any real idea what the next week will bring. I surely think I'll be around in this world for a while. I do not wish to give up now. I'm interested in a lot of things and I want to see how these things come out in time. I have also my pets to consider and my Dad who's still doing as well as he can.
7. I've been asked to consider moving to Spain. It's rather a long way to get there. So many logistical problems to overcome. First, I need to find a way to live there - some town to live in. Apartments are probably going to be somewhat of a financial challenge in rents. Then there's the job scene but if I were to keep with what I"m doing and get the remote position that I am thinking of getting, then it might be doable. Then I'd have to persuade Dad to move to Spain and he's kind of an immoveable object in many things, especially in getting his butt out of this place, haha. Then of course there's the travel involved in getting to choose an apartment to live in. That will take a week or so to find one. Then I'd have to return home to get us moved into Spain. All the money and time involved, not to mention oh, the pets. I'd have to get the pets taken to their vets to get them a pet something or other. I do not even know what Spain thinks of pets getting moved into their country. Such a lot of energy to expend. Even psychic energy will be something to help with. I'll need to consult God about this as well and Jesus. I might have to broach the idea to my Dad sometime. But I'll let it go for now.
8. Car purchase is not going well. I do not wish to get a damn car now. I'm so fucking tired of getting nowhere. The dealers are always asking me for a co-signer and a downpayment. So I have to save up on the downpayment. The FICO problem is another thing to think of but not too much. I am tired of this FICO crap. I do know that my FICO score has gone up eversince these lawyers have helped take out some of these fictional debts that have been added to my credit profile.
9. The house is not on sale right now. I'm not able to get a mortgage or qualify for one. MyFICO is also in this. I've been told or some realtor person suggested I go for a bankruptcy and then in 2 years I'd be able to get into a mortgage. But I know that because I'm one of the two who are on the mortgage of our house I'll likely loose the house and Dad will have a fit and he won't go for it. I have not quite told him about this. I do not know what he will say. He probably will hate the idea. And, I do not know where we will be living in the USA, if we do move out of here. I cannot say that I want to go to INdianapolis. That place isn't that great. Somehow it's gotten less attractive. SO many fucking traffic, so many places that have unfinished road remodelings or whatever they're called. There's a huge hole in the highway somewhere on the way to Carmel, it's awful. It's been there for years. It's not been finished. And the way out of town in that area is so fucking confusing. It's terrible how the DOT has fallen off the wagon on this. I do not know why people have to do these road constructions there seem to be too many of these going every fucking year and somehow I guess that is how they employ people. It's a hard job and it's too cruel on a person's body. All these in the heat of the summer or even sometimes in the fall. Awful how it's sad.
10. I do not know what else to say here I guess business is not doing well. I'm trying not to get into a funk about it. I am praying as much as I can pray. I do not wish to talk about my faith. It is still strong. I will be looking at attending church someday but not in this town. Too many bags of wigged out people here.
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