12 July 2020
I've had enough of this weekly regimen of torture by remote intimidation from this country and its political leader, Donald Trump. I've sent a letter to President Emmanuel Macron to ask him for help and grant me and my family asylum. I am not sure that he will reply and if he does I do not know what he will say. I know that there are regulations there guiding people in applying for asylum, but I have no money to go there and be available to get in to an interview but I'd be willing to try to talk to someone there by means of electronic video or other similar means. I'm not sure I will be getting asylum but I'm feeling so suffocated by these awful ghosts and bad thoughts every day. I cannot get anything accomplished. I have no means to defend myself except through prayer. I know prayers are powerful. I am confident that God will guide me. I know He has been guiding me otherwise I will have been totally eliminated from the face of this earth.
I ask you for prayers for me and my mission to find asylum in France. I am hoping for a miracle, to be sure. I cannot think of any other means to get help. I think President Macron will have some ideas to help me, if he is a sympathetic man. I am not happy that I have to leave the comfort of my home but the comfort is so minute now, that I cannot even be feeling safe in my bed.
Sleep has been lacking, and I'm getting so very sad and feeling as though nobody loves me and nobody cares and I have no real friends. My 'friends' that I've met in my past life have all been traitors. They feed the Queen all information on what I'm doing. She's been paying people for so many years to thwart my every move, every inspiration and even my own self-confidence.
I want to leave this country as soon as I can. But I know I must be very careful. I do not wish to make any impulsive moves. I cannot anyway, for I'm not rich far from it. I'm trying to find some funding through GoFundMe but that isn't a guarantee that people will help me.
I'm finding that those who are kind to me are made to suffer. It is a nightmare and yet I feel as though the confidence that God is in control is keeping me from suffering a breakdown. I'm very much aware of everything that I need to be taking care of.
I'm not happy and this is making my work suffer. I can't sell my knit items (I own Merryagnesknits and Meredith's Handmade Knits) on my online shops. People look but they don't buy. I've sold my own jewelry and my stepmother's and stepfather's jewelry and other objects they used to own to keep our family fed and keep the bills paid.
We are running out of avenues to pay for the things that we have to. Our house is old and there are many things that need repair. We have to sacrifice. But this isn't a good thing to have to live with for an extended period of time.
I wish you could continue to pray for me and my family.
Thank you,
Mary
I ask you for prayers for me and my mission to find asylum in France. I am hoping for a miracle, to be sure. I cannot think of any other means to get help. I think President Macron will have some ideas to help me, if he is a sympathetic man. I am not happy that I have to leave the comfort of my home but the comfort is so minute now, that I cannot even be feeling safe in my bed.
Sleep has been lacking, and I'm getting so very sad and feeling as though nobody loves me and nobody cares and I have no real friends. My 'friends' that I've met in my past life have all been traitors. They feed the Queen all information on what I'm doing. She's been paying people for so many years to thwart my every move, every inspiration and even my own self-confidence.
I want to leave this country as soon as I can. But I know I must be very careful. I do not wish to make any impulsive moves. I cannot anyway, for I'm not rich far from it. I'm trying to find some funding through GoFundMe but that isn't a guarantee that people will help me.
I'm finding that those who are kind to me are made to suffer. It is a nightmare and yet I feel as though the confidence that God is in control is keeping me from suffering a breakdown. I'm very much aware of everything that I need to be taking care of.
I'm not happy and this is making my work suffer. I can't sell my knit items (I own Merryagnesknits and Meredith's Handmade Knits) on my online shops. People look but they don't buy. I've sold my own jewelry and my stepmother's and stepfather's jewelry and other objects they used to own to keep our family fed and keep the bills paid.
We are running out of avenues to pay for the things that we have to. Our house is old and there are many things that need repair. We have to sacrifice. But this isn't a good thing to have to live with for an extended period of time.
I wish you could continue to pray for me and my family.
Thank you,
Mary
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